29 December 2008
All this has had me pondering...do I have any dreams or aspirations? Do I need to? Is it okay to just BE, or should I be doing something else for ME in the meantime?
Do I want that?
If I don't, am I lazy?
Things I've pondered and didn't want to answer until the other night when I was listening to the "Mama Mia" cd in my car, singing to every song. Then, the second to last song, "I have a Dream" started and I pictured Eliza singing it in a High School play and thought it would be a very fitting graduation song...
And I realized...I want to take voice lessons (but that takes money) and I want to sing "Oh Holy Night" solo sometime. I sing with Celine Dion all the time, but that's a song I'd love to conquer. That, and a beautiful version of "Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing." So much to do, so little time. I should stick with ward choir and my yearly goal of loosing weight, which I'm doing better at each day (despite the Holiday set-back). Happy New Year!!
26 December 2008
Your Mom said your apartment is smaller than your house. That will be fun to be so close together! But, that also means there won’t be a lot of room for extra things. I bet it’s hard to give toys away that were yours. But, those toys make someone else happy, too. And that makes me happy.
I know your Christmas Lists were long and there are so many toys to choose from. I picked the best ones out of the bunch to give to you. These things will help you be good brothers and sisters to each other, and you will have lots of fun sharing them together! Family is more important than toys, anyway.
I’m glad you are excited about moving to an apartment. Be sure to help your Mom keep it clean! I’m always watching!
22 December 2008
I woke up so excited!! We were getting the keys to our new apartment today!! We had loaded up both cars last night with stuff I wanted to move in today before I left for work this afternoon. So, we needed to get an early start so we'd have time to do it all!
The morning started slow and warm, but by the time I got everyone in the car and up to Salt Lake, it was blowing and snowing! The girls only had jackets! It took almost an hour getting everything together to pick up our keys and paperwork. Then we rushed the girls upstairs while D and I unloaded the cars and brought the stuff up on the elevator :) (yup) to the 13th floor (yup).
On our first walk-through, I gasped as I saw the size of the place! It was a lot bigger in my mind. Then, going into what should have been a huge master bedroom with a double closet pass-through to the second bathroom...there was no pass-through, just one closet, half the size we have now. :( Plus, the kitchen is smaller. Wow (sigh, as I literally fought back tears). Right away I called the office to see if the other two apartments across the hall were rented. They were (another sigh). Well, we asked for the room with the view. I just didn't realize the elevator would take up half my bedroom and part of my kitchen!
Anyway, I'm over it. We met one of the couples across the hall and they have a 4 year old girl (Hallelujah!!) and are very nice, so I won't harbor any bad feelings that even though they have half as many kids as us that they have a larger place. Nope. I'm an adult.
Moving on (hehe), I realize I'm almost late for work so we get to our cars and by now the roads are very snowy and slushy so I'm literally coasting down the road. As I turn the corner I see a few cars stopped and people walking around, so I start braking so I can slow down for them. Brake, yes. Stop? Didn't happen. My brakes locked and so did my brain. I couldn't steer and was too freaked out at the truck in front of me that I couldn't lift my foot off the brake to unlock them! So, what do you do when you are coasting down a hill at 10 mph with locked brakes? Look at the people in the other car looking at you and put your hands over your mouth. Yup. Crunch.
Actually, I've hit harder in Bumper Cars, and I had my seat belt on. :)
I'm fine, but it was just a bad end to a sad morning. D's already had the car looked at and I'm looking at what else I can downsize, but I'm still glad we are moving and I can't believe it's only two days till Christmas!!
21 December 2008
I've debated whether or not to send the annual Christmas Letter at all this year. As much as I love all of you, stamps are expensive. So, I figured, with all we have going on (moving next week, and all), I figured you’d all forgive one year. I drug my feet and now, here it is, 4 days before Christmas and I can’t get you all out of my mind! So many blessings and experiences to share, how can I not at least express my gratitude to all of you? Here goes; no pictures though. As I’m sitting here, I’m too tired to get them off my camera. But, if you’re aching for pictures, visit our blog at peayday.blogspot.com and you can stay updated with all kinds of fun!
Back to us: it’s been a busy year (has anyone ever said ‘it’s been a slow year?’). No, really. Daryl finished his last Chemotherapy treatment in January. He slowly was able to return to work, but he’s body has been trying to catch up with the rest of us. Then in April, a great friend Daryl met during Radiation Therapy, died after complications with pneumonia. We went together to his funeral. This friend made us both want to live our lives better. He was a great example of living, in spite of your trials. Daryl took a lot of strength from his memories. This fall has been tough on Daryl’s health. A simple cold turned into a bad infection and he was recently diagnosed with migraine headaches after suffering for months. He’s hoping his new medication will help him feel better! He also started back to school full time again. I am so grateful for his efforts and we can’t wait for him to be all done! He’s also was called to be Sunday School president in our ward earlier this year. We’ve both even been able to substitute in different classes on occasion.
I have really enjoyed working at the Huntsman Cancer Hospital. It was so much more rewarding than sad, as some may think, but after going through all we did with Daryl, then after Daryl’s friend died, I decided I needed to make a change. When your patients and your family AND your friends start to combine, something has to give. That’s what I love about nursing: there are always options! So, I had some interviews in different areas and was blessed to be accepted into the Operating Room internship. It was a very long and hard 5 months. I missed my family and they missed me. We all got more creative with Roman noodles and Mac’n Cheese. But now that’s it’s over and I’m working at the Clinical Neurosciences Center Operating Room, the change was so worth the struggle. I have more time at home and I love the work I’m doing. If you’ve got to do it full time, might as well enjoy it, right? I was released earlier this year as Primary Pianist. It was fun being in the Primary and I made some great friendships there, as well as hearing Eliza’s random comments about how I yelled at her to clean up the toy room for the tenth time on some random day…yes, she keeps us all on our toes.
Jordan started the third grade this fall. We were sad that his Mom and Step-dad decided to move back to American Fork, so Jordan started a new school this fall, too. But, he likes his teacher and has made new friends and we are still able to pick him up from school when Daryl has his time with him. In his class this year, something sparked an interest in Astronauts and now he wants to fly to the moon! That and Hot Wheels (thanks, Uncle Jarrod :). He still loves to build things and will spend hours with his legos or building blocks. He also will play Barbies with Eliza. Now that puts him up for Brother-of-the-Year. So much so, that last year for Christmas, when the girls got new Barbies, we got him a GI Joe and called him Barbie’s Bodyguard. Now Barbie needs more Bodyguards, he insists. But he’d rather be playing computer games.
Eliza finished Kindergarten and started First Grade this fall. She has enjoyed her teacher and I’ve been happy with her progress. She’s a great reader, doing well in all her subjects, but gets in trouble for talking too much. :) My Eliza, social? She always has something clever to say, and it’s usually way beyond her years. She loves pink and princesses and dolls, but will scream bloody murder if I come at her with a curling iron! “Don’t!” She begs! She tried ballet last year and had a recital in June. It was adorable, but she didn’t want to do it again, “because we have to do the splits. That hurts.” Well, how can you argue with that? She also started piano lessons in January and was doing so well. We hope that after we get settled in our new place that she and I can start working on it again.
Lydia has just been growing leaps and bounds! Just when I was about to become worried about her speech, she started talking!! And not just words, but whole sentences! She’ll express a whole thought, in broken words, but it’s so interesting how you can understand exactly what she needs. And if you don’t understand, she’ll correct you. She loves to be with her older brother and sister and she’s taken a knack to coloring…anything. She’s even helped me wipe walls, and blocks, and beds, and dressers…she’s very creative. She also loves anything Barbie and knows all the Princesses. Some days she insists on me calling her ‘Snow White’ or ‘Aurora.’ So much fun. We also figured out that she has responded to a gluten-free diet. She didn’t test positive for Celiac disease, but the tests weren’t conclusive, so we tried adjusting her diet and her body does better without the gluten and wheat. That in itself is a huge adjustment, but even small steps have been good for her.
As for the family, along with Daryl starting school again and me working full-time, we decided to move closer to school and work. Moving right after Christmas will be interesting, but I am so glad we will be where we are going. So close to school, so close to work, the bus will pick up Eliza, Lydia will only be at a wonderful education center (structured day care) for 4 hours three days a week and Daryl can concentrate on school (since he was laid off a few weeks ago). This year has been filled with so many blessings, even more than I have stuffed into this already long letter. See? I couldn’t have made it this long if I was printing out 50+ and mailing them! J Daryl and I both have a new outlook on life and priorities. “It doesn’t matter what you want. What matters is wanting what you’ve got.” I’ve heard that somewhere (even Sheryl Crow), and it’s so very true. Change is inevitable, but how we react to that change is what makes us grow. I love change! I love new adventures. Some people are a bit more hesitant, but I have enough adventurism for the rest of us!
Thank you all so much for your prayers and thoughts and encouragement. We look forward to next year and all that it brings. May you be able to reflect on your blessings this year and be grateful for the greatest gift of all, our Savior.
Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year
Daryl, Rachel, Jordan, Eliza and Lydia
17 December 2008
14 December 2008
I asked D the other day if he knew what he would be getting me for Christmas. In front of the kids, he asked if I'd written my letter to Santa. How else would Santa know what I wanted. Oh, okay. So I did, and even told him where it needed to go after it was wrapped (ie: under tree or in stocking). That got me thinking: I should make my Grown-up Christmas List. Why not? Indulge me. :) Any of you should do it too!
**No More Taxes
**Wii Fit :)
**Unbreakable, never need sharpening colored pencils
**Massage once a week for the rest of my life
**Craft closet organizer
Yah, it's fun to dream about 'what if.' The truth is, even though there will always be something that will make me say, "Oh, wouldn't that be nice," there will always be a drawback. I work hard for what I do have and I love every minute of the work. Besides, if I had a house cleaner, how would my children learn to scrub floors like I did? On my hands and knees? Not even Swiffer can clean like that! :) I am grateful for each and every one of my blessings and inconveniences because they help me enjoy the time I do have with my family.
Enjoy the Holiday! Merry Christmas
07 December 2008
Me: (frantically looking) Under where?
J rolling on the floor laughing says, between laughing breaths, "I just made you say underware!!" The laughing continues. Of course this brings E into the kitchen and a whole other round of "Under Where" jokes ensue...I guess it's a 6 year old thing, too.
Now I can tell J that I made all of you say Underware too!! He'll be impressed. :)
Have a great day!
04 December 2008
01 December 2008
Anyway, Mack and Shaan hosted the festivities (thanks guys!) and the Bartschi Family Roll Call: (minus Carolee, Sharron and Bryant) was together, including Zac's Fiance Janice. Happy to have you. After dinner, we watched football and played cards while the kids gorged themselves on video games and chips and soda. Yes, all good parenting eating habits flew out the window when I realized, "Stressful or relaxing?" You decided. Plus, Shaan made the most dilectable Sweet Potato Casserole with a crunchy-sweet pecan topping. Eliza took one bite and exclaimed to everyone present, "I LOVE SWEET POTATOES!" Yesss! Let's see what else I can call a 'sweet potato.' :)
The highlight of the evening? Grandma B agreeing to join the Wii Tennis Tourney, and even making Harrison play all three matches! Go Grandma!
Ok, so the real highlight of the evening? Everyone falling asleep in the car on the way home. 30 minutes of nothing but driving and the Christmas music on the radio. Lovely.
Bedtime? That's a post for another time, but it could've been worse.
Most Thankful Blessing of the Year? D not in the hospital and his scan on 19 Nov was clean. Two years to go. Thank you to everyone for your prayers and helpfulness this past year!
Pics to come....
16 November 2008
Anyway, who would have thought that it would be so difficult finding a dress with pink and brown on it...together?!?!? I've seen stuff everywhere, it seemed, with pink and brown, addorable stuff, too. I envisioned a brown dress with pink polkadots, pink ribbon at the empire waist, maybe a brown shrug. Adorable, right?? Yah, right. I haven't been to the mall in ages.
Apparently, only in my dreams. And, if I could even figure out a sewing machine, I considered for a very small moment to make them my dang self! Everywhere was black and pink, black and red, cream and every other color, even brown and blue! No luck with brown and pink, together.
Then, to what do my wondering eyes should appear? A brown taffita A-line with an empire waist, pink and champanine ribbon sewed all around it. I didn't matter that I had to buy everyone of them a larger size. I fell in love. These are perfect. Not quite what I had in mind... but better! For the happy ending, I found fuzzy shruggs on clearance for the babys and a shimmery shrug for Eliza. What a day! I was pooped, but very gratified.
My reason for this post: besides my frustration, I became so very exceited to actually buy something for me, in a smaller size!! I know what I want, and I'm determined to get it in a smaller size in one month. If I can't find it, I will definatly make it (or my Grandma will help me a great deal!)!
So help me if my bro's fiance changes her colors! :)
12 November 2008
I make very few political stands, and though I enjoy discussing situations with family and friends, I couldn't care less what other people think or how others believe, as long as it doesn't infringe on my rights. They have their opinions, fine. I have mine. Leave me and the constitution alone and we'll be happy. :) Start messing with my constitution and I'll brandish my religion and a gun, and I'll teach my children how to use it.
That's the end of my political rant. I will embrace the Obama family as our First Family and will give Pres-Elect Obama every opportunity to keep my confidence. And, as long as I am not asked to overstep my morals, I will support him as my leader. God Bless America.
In the meantime, we are building up our food storage (that we even use from time to time) and building up our savings. I am even registering Eliza for a Charter home school to start next fall. That's how much confidence I have in our public education. We will take care of ourselves. I will not be expecting the government to take care of us. So we will be taking care of our own family.
Isn't that how it should be? Be as self-sufficient as possible? Since when have we started expecting the government to take care of us? Since when has that been a responsibility of the government?? Oh, yeah, since FDR took on the economy during the depression and now people feel entitled to government assistance. "Why should I get a job when I can get Unemployment?"
Great, thanks. Too bad I'll never get to spend any of my social security. Glad I'm still paying into that bowl. I'm just praying for the Second Coming to happen before I have to retire. :)
End of Rant
02 November 2008
I wasn't expecting it to be about cancer (I won't say anything more than that) but it was unexpectedly thought-provoking. I called Daryl home from school early so I could watch it again with him. I was pretty emotional all evening, and I'm still not sure that he got why. I'm a pretty emotional person, by nature, and crying is not foreign to me. But thinking about loosing a loved one, watching them throughout the dying process, isn't something anyone looks forward to. I saw so much of that working at the Cancer Hospital. This movie put that all in my face again that day. "This could be a possibility for us." For anyone, really. Anything could happen (the movie is very positive, you see no dying, just wanted to throw that out there).
So far, we've been blessed and will continue to be. D was given a wonderful blessing and his scans have been clean. The next one is in a few weeks (19 Nov). Thank you for all your prayers and words of encouragement. In the end, it comes down to our own personal determination. He is my hero and I love that I work every day helping other people...pay it forward.
I think we should watch that movie too.
30 October 2008
What are 5 things on my to do list today?
1. Get out of bed (was almost late to work)
2. Don't eat any solid food today (colonoscopy in the morning)
3. Go to the gym
4. Read the girls a story
5. Go to bed early (fun day, hu? I even made Gormet Mac 'N Cheese. Sweet)
What are my 5 favorite snacks?
2. Cheddar Sun Chips
3. Ice cream
4. Chocolate donuts
5. Dark chocolate
What 5 things I would do if I were a millionaire?
1. Pay off debt
2. Build a house (including furnishings)
3. Build our parents' houses (including furnishings)
4. Put away money for kids
5. Spend a year in Europe
5 places I have lived:
1. Pocatello, ID
2. Cubbuck, ID
3. Wakabuck, NY
4. Winterture, Switzerland
5. Sandy, UT
5 jobs I have had:
1. CNA (nursing home)
2. CNA (hospital)
3. DI - that was fun, really.
4. Dental assistant - more fun
5. RN - not so much fun as fulfilling
5 people I tag:
1. Miss M
2. Jenny L
5. Melissa H
27 October 2008
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Who needs spell check?!?
22 October 2008
E: I don't want you to die
D: Well, why not? (where exactly can you go with that, right?)
E: Because girls without dads have to live with mean step-moms and have to ware raggs and work as maids and clean the house with a mop.
D: Well, maybe your Fairy Godmother will bring you a Prince?
E thinks about that for a minute
E: What about mom?
D: Maybe the Fairy Godmother will bring Mom a king!
E: (pauses) Naw, she's better off with a normal husband like you.
I couldn't agree more :) xoxo
19 October 2008
(Why does it look like I'm partially cut out of this picutre? I just noticed that)
1. Where did you first meet your husband?
We met through LDSsingles.com. He was one of my first contacts (he contated me) and we chatted for a month before we actually met in person.
2. What was the first thing you said to your husband?
"Hi, Daryl?" After he knocked on my door, and I opened it, to pick me up for our first date. I don't remember what our first on-line conversation was.
3. Where was your first date?
We went to the Bengal Cafe on ISU campus to listen to a musical performer (who was really quite entertaining) with some other friends of mine. These other friends were supposed to be meeting guys there, too, so I invited Daryl to come with me. I didn't want to be the only one there without a date. Turns out, the other guys didn't show, so it was Daryl with 3 girls. :)
4. Where was your first kiss?
On my cheeck... :) really. Oh, you mean a geographical place? I actually told him I didn't want things to be physical between me and another person for a while, and he respected that. He gives the best hugs. :) After we had deceided to get engaged, he had just talked with my dad and was still kind of nervous. We were helping my sister move and he walked me to my car. I turned my head to kiss him on the cheeck at the same time he turned, and we ended up kissing on the lips! We both jumped because of the unexpected result and laughed. I drove off, but he kissed me good-bye properly that night. :) I didn't mind.
5. Did you have a long or short engagement/courtship?
It was unintentionally long. We were waiting for a sealing clearance from the First Presidency so we could be sealed in the temple. His ex-wife didn't make things any easier, either. We were engaged on Feb 14. The sealing clearance came on 8 September. We were married on 16 September. We were hoping on July, moved it to May, then just waited...until September. It really was a great time to get married; not too hot, not too cold.
6. Where did you get engaged?
See the Valentine's Day blog post :)
7. Where did you get married?
Jordan River Temple.
8. How did the reception go?
We had two open houses in October, one in American Fork and one in Pocatello. They were simple but fun. I was just glad to get the whole thing over with and move on with being a family. It's great to be able to be with your best friend, forever.
9. How was the honeymoon?
When the sealing clearance came, we just wanted to get married already! So, we just picked the next Friday. I didn't have to work that weekend and Daryl was just in school, so we had Saturday and Sunday to ourselves. :) We just stayed in a local hotel, then went home Sunday afternoon and went back to school/work on Monday. We keep saying we're going to go on a "real" honeymoon/vaccation (sans children), but it hasn't happened yet.
I tag Melissa and Alida ;)
15 October 2008
First of all, my alarm goes off at 3:45am, because it's Wednesday and I'm supposed to go to the gym before I catch the train to go to work...Yah, that didn't happen. I reset my alarm for 5am then listened to D toss and turn. 'Why is your alarm going off so early?' I was supposed to go to the gym. 'Does it always go off that early?' Only when I'm supposed to go to the gym. 'We need to put pictures of the house on our listing.' Ok. I never went back to sleep. I might as well have gone to the gym. At least then I'd have an excuse for being tired.
5:00 - Still didn't want to get out of bed. Finally rolled out at 5:35. Freshened up, got dressed, hair in ponytail, through a lunch together...obviously missed my train, so I'm driving, hoping there will still be a parking space, enjoying the morning radio.
6:10 - A handfull of parking spaces left. Yesss. Park. Recline the seat and lay there, listening to the radio until 6:35 and I step out of the car into the dark, dimly-lit parking lot and look down at my black shoes on the dark asphalt...realizing I have black scrub pants on...and my black fleece jacket. Nice. No worries, I have mace!....in my ski coat (doh!)! I start walking faster. I needed the exercise. :)
6:40 - clock in, safe and sound.
Welcome to my world.
07 October 2008
Last weekend, up at my parents house, L had a diaper blow-out. So as I'm putting her clothes (and car seat cover) in the washer, I can't justify running even a small load with only 4 things in the washer! So, I stripped then (after putting on my pj's) went and confiscated D's and E's clothes. There. Totally justified water consumption.
That was Friday.
Saturday morning: D, did you put my phone somewhere? No. It's not in your purse? You'd think, hu. It's...not...oh crap!!
Running to the washer did little to help the fact the washing cycle finished more than 10 hours prior. Yah, my phone was at the bottom, falling out of my pant's pocket as I whipped them out.
WHO HAS THE CLEANEST PHONE?!?!?! Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah. It's so clean it doesn't even WORK anymore! Now, that's Clean.
And that's how you do that, and get a new phone. LG Rumor, as shiney green as my favorite Prada purse. Oh Yeah!
03 October 2008
Anyway, it's almost closing time for the Uhaul store and they needed a driver's license to copy. Understandable, but the kid said, "As long as you're back here by 7pm (closing time) I can help you." So, he's hurrying home, grabs his DL, gets back there at 6:59 on D's watch. Daryl says, "Can I pick up my trailer please?" The kids actually said, "No, dude. It's 7pm" then showed him the time from his cell phone.
D's -issed at this point and says, "Look, all I want is to take the trailer with me tonight." And the kid says, "You'll have to come back in the morning."
"But, I'm here right now. Come on."
"You need to leave or I'm calling the police." And before D could do anything else, the kid actually dialed 911! D left at that point, and we got a phone call about 30 minutes later. :) The officer was really nice and told D that it was a dead case (meaning there wouldn't be any citations) and hung up.
My dilemma came when I didn't want to go back to this place, but I had made the reservation on-line and the reservation department assigned my reservation to this particular store, so I had to pick my trailer up from them or if I cancel on the day of pick-up, I'd be charged $50. So, I'm thinking...I'll just go in the morning (without D, of course), get the trailer and be done with it. So, I get up and pull into the parking lot at 7am and go the door as the kid unlocks the door. He doesn't let me in. "We aren't going to rent to you." Oh, what about my reservation. "I cancelled it last night." What about the cancellation fee? "I didn't charge you, even though I legally could, I didn't charge your card."
I sure as hell didn't say Thank you, I just turned around and drove away. What the...? Would it have hurt anyone to keep their computer on an extra 5 minutes to be helpful to a customer? We found another place, and good thing it was first thing in the morning, cuz I'd hate to make someone stay late at work! Freak! How about, next time someone comes to the operating room and I say, "Nope, sorry. You're 1 minute late. I'm not going to help with this one. You'll have to wait until tomorrow. Here's a band-aid." He didn't even offer a band-aid, he freakin' called the cops!! Ugh!
Mack, add this store to your list. Don't black the whole Uhaul, just the store on 53rd and State. Dumb kid. Daryl, intimidating?? ;)
(Deep breath) I ran out of 'happy pills' last night, but got some this morning, so I'll be okay.
People, just don't be stupid. Where's the love? Hu? Just be helpful to each other. That's all. It's not too much to ask. Really. :)
27 September 2008
I love autumn, but it doesn't quite feel like autumn yet. Summer is still trying to keep a nasty hold on things and I'm ready to kick it to the curb, with all of the other junk in my house I'm getting rid of. I'm tired of being hot and sweaty all the time. It's a great time to CLEAN out closets, drawers, heck - ROOMS! Teresa get's an early Christmas. She's getting half my house practically, even the kitchen table! You're welcome, sis. :)
What I love about fall:
Crisp, cool air that wakes you up when you open the door
Crunching leaves with my feet, or hands
Watching the kids as they find "treasures" of all colors
Hot Cocoa (I'll drink it year-round, but now I have a cover)
Hot Apple Cider and filling my house with that scent
Cuddling with a blanket and a good book
Cuddling with a blanket and my Hubby and any movie (once again, year-round stuff)
Everything seems to slow down and I feel like I can catch my breath again. I'm looking forward to moving soon and starting new memories. Fall is a great time for memories, school pictures, autumn crafts, and did I mention hot chocolate? Hmmm, no matter that it's 85 outside. I'm in the mood for some chocolate. :)
20 September 2008
Seriously, I tossed and turned, then finally rolled over, sneezed a few times, looked at the clock and it was 5:55 and my body was having no more sleep! Ugh! So, I went upstairs to take an allergy pill (that will knock me out in about another hour) and decided to catch up on my blog reading and personal on-line journal.
I have noticed that since I left our bed 75 minutes ago, Daryl has been sleeping very soundly.
I contemplated laying down on the very comfy couch in the very-dark family room, then I figured I could write a blog about the harrows of working every day and not getting enough sleep and having so much to do and no time to do it...then while I'm typing I'm thinking..."Nothing new. Everyone feels that way, regardless of their situation." Yes, I'm no pioneer, just yet another tired Mom who tries to make everything work for everyone and trying to keep everyone happy.
And yet, this morning, being awake before anyone else, I'm feeling subtly accomplished as a person. That's a new development.
I'm going to take my daily 'happy pill' (another blog for another time) and bring in a bunch of boxes and start packing.
Love you all. Thanks for reading!
19 September 2008
I guess there is always sperm donation... ;)
When Daryl is done with school, maybe we'll look at adoption. I would love to adopt a baby. But the thought of being pregnant at 34 isn't doing it for me.
So, our family will grow old together and we can start planning our retirement. Empty nest at age 49 and 46!! WooHoo!! :)
17 September 2008
Speaking of catching up, Daryl took my out on a real date last night for our 3rd Anniversary. It was so lovely. He arranged a babysitter (thanks Papa Peay) and took me to The Roof Restaurant at the JSMB. He wanted to go to the Joseph Smith movie first, but he didn't make it home from work in time. But, we walked around temple square and walked through the South Visitor's Center. They've put in an exhibition about building the SLC temple. It was really interesting.
Dinner was so cozy. I never knew "buffet" could be so elegant. There was even a pianist, and she was even playing pieces I knew. :) Then, while we were eating, she started playing our song (Bless the Broken Road, by Rascal Flats) and I started tearing up. D asked her to play it for us. We had a beautiful night view of the temple and the city from our table and just enjoyed our evening together. I knew we were going to go out to dinner, but he wanted the rest to be a surprise. It's nice to be surprised now and then. Thanks, love. I can't wait to go back next year and talk about these past months.
11 September 2008
Me: Then why don't you listen to me?
E: Well, I'm not Wonder Woman!
(I didn't even know she knew who WW was!!)
E: Mom?!? Is something burning? I smell bacon!!
(referring to a time when the bacon caught on fire in the oven as I was trying to cook it)
E: Mom, I have some Saturday Rules.
E: Rule #1 -- Come upstairs on Saturday morning and get us out of bed.
Rule #2 -- If I'm not awake, go back downstairs until I am awake.
Rule #3 -- When I stomp on the floor, come upstairs and get breakfast ready.
E: It's pretty simple, really...Why are you trying not to laugh?
Me: I'm not laughing. I just love listening to your stories.
E: It's not a story, Mother. It's just breakfast.
(not only has she made rules, but what 6yo says 'pretty simple, really'? I'm still chuckling!)
09 September 2008
John Kelleny, eight-time marathoner and leading fundraiser with the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team in Training (starbucks.com)
07 September 2008
Because the faster Daryl gets through school, the sooner I can stay home with the kids, he's going to school full time this semester, hopefully full time until he graduates. But that means less time at work and less extra income.
Cancer isn't what it used to be.
So, in order to cut costs, we've put ourselves on a waiting list for an apartment back on campus. At first we were told it would take a year or longer. Then we found out, because of the apartment we want, we could be into it by the end of the year!! What a blessing! We'll find out for sure in November.
But that means more change (which D isn't crazy about) and leaving our friends here in White City. That would be the only thing that holds me back, but that won't pay my mortgage so I gotta move on! :) There is so much we need to do to the house to get it ready to sell, but I had a dream last night that we sold it right away. I know this is a blessing, and all though we'll miss our friends and neighborhood, I know this is an answer to our prayers. I am really very excited. It will be a fun opportunity to live on campus again; being close to work = more time at home with my family! Small apartment = cozy fun times!
Change is never easy, but I love a good challenge, and a good chance to clean out my house!!
Daryl needs a little more convincing. Anyone good with a paint brush? I need all the help I can get!!
03 September 2008
02 September 2008
But come on, people?? I know it's just a job, but can you find a way to NOT make me hold for 12 minutes, just to talk to something other than an automated voice machine???
Seriously, we all know the cranky adolescent at the grocery store whose throwing the produce, or the gum-chewing receptionist who gives you the run-around about making an appointment, or heaven forbid the nurse in the Emergency Department who thinks you like to fake pain (and know all the right answers because you're a nurse). Right? We've all been there.
But after I'd been on hold for 12 minutes, a real person finally says, " (name of company), can you hold for a minute?" I seriously didn't say anything right away. What did come out was "I guess." Because I really was stunned that he would ask. Then, what starts going through your head? All the answers you wanted to say, right? Like, "No, I've just been holding for 12 minutes!" or, my favorite, "How about I put you on HOLD? Hu? Let's do that for a change!" Ya, none of that comes out, though, hu? Now I'm just waiting, and I kid you not, the music is twice as slow as it is supposed to be, reminding... me... of... all... the... time... I'm... waisting...
How have we gotten so complacent that we accept poor behavior. Why do we just 'put up with' people treating each other poorly?
The last few months I have had my share of being treated unprofessionally, and it's been in my role as a patient. And I'm glad to say that I'm so fed up with it all, that it came crashing down on an unsuspecting physician's staff (who took it very well) and the CNO of our hospital, who sent me a reply email within the hour. :)
No one needs to be treated as any less of a person, so don't take it. Don't just stand by and let someone give poor customer service. Expect the best out of people and they will give it to you... hopefully. :)
28 August 2008
21 August 2008
...yah, I volunteered to be the Treasure, thinking that was a pretty benign and safely controlled choice, thinking that if I was doing something, I wouldn't get the constant phone calls to help with this or that when I'd have to say no anyway, because outside of my family, I HAVE A LIFE. We'll see how that works.
Don't get me wrong. I want to help. I want to be involved. But the largeness of the program is nauseating.
I really do believe that the kids would still function and education would not cease if there were no Reflections (art shows) or Meet the Masters (doesn't anyone really go?) or Parent's and Pastries or Jog-a-thon's and fundraisers (to raise money for said activities). Seriously people? What happened to the parents or the students supporting their student's teachers, sending the needed supplies, putting together their own class parties, etc.
Kids who are homeschooled don't have PTA. (Gasp) I know!! How do they even get through their school curriculum??
They don't have PTAs...They have parents.
I remember submitting a story for Relfections when I was in the 5th grade, but none of this other fluffy stuff. And that's what it is. PTA has gotten so out of hand. By allowing this program to become as large as it has, at a national level, it has actually taken more accountability away from parents, when their creed is to help get parents more involved. If anyone has more PTA insight, then by all means enlighten me. But I had NO IDEA that there are chapters and Commissioners and more Commissioners and so many people involved. Kind of superfluous, I think. If I find out any of them get any kind of financial compensation, I may seriously spontaneously combust.
Now, people think, "Oh, the PTA takes care of that. I don't have to." Yup, thanks to socialized liberal school propaganda and more governmental programs that brainwash us into thinking we need all these programs to have a functional school system. Thus we don't have to be responsible for our children's education or extra activities because the government should just take care of it all.
The Principal was almost crying at Back to School night when she was saying how we almost had no PTA president for this year (thus no PTA) when a Dad picked up the baton. Kudos to him, honestly, though.
But really. We should have given it a year and then said, "Man, that saved a whole lot of people a whole lot of headaches."
20 August 2008
Lydia: (looks at Dad, smiles at Mom)
Lydia: (looks at Dad and sits)
Lydia smiles at Dad
Daryl: Good girl (pats her on the head)
Lydia: Ruff!! (pant, pant)
We all almost fell off our chairs laughing!! :)
14 August 2008
Learning to appreciate yourself takes time.
Beating yourself up for past mistakes is usless, but it still happens.
Moving on is difficult.
Learning to love yourself starts when you are little.
Seperating the illusion of yourself and who you really are takes talent and honesty.
That last statement gives me a headache.
My life changed drastically seven years ago.
There is nothing I can do about the past.
There is no point in asking "What if...?"
I know I can only control what lies ahead, but it doesn't make the past hurt any less.
This will make no sense to any of you.
That's okay. It does to me and it's good to get it out in black and white.
12 August 2008
Well, since our budget only allows us to view movies from the sticky row at the local Dollar Theater, our movie choises so far have been limited. :) We did see The Hulk last Saturday night. Pretty intense. Apparently we should have watched Iron Man first. We'll see that next week. :)
So, I can tell you want we are anxious to see as soon as it gets to Our Theater:
Dark Knight (I know, I sware we are the only people on the face of the planet!)
Mama Mia (more me than Daryl)
11 August 2008
Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. Financial Freedom
Two People Who Will Fill This Out:
Two Things You Did Last Night:
1. Watched Michael Phelps and team win a Gold medal! (3 more to go for Phelps!)
2. Drove to the Draper Temple after dinner
Two Things You Ate Yesterday:
Two People You Last Talked To:
2. Phone Salesman (bless his heart)
Two Things You're Doing Tomorrow:
2. Riding the train to and from work
Your Two Favorite Holidays:
2. Someplace with a beach
1. Diet Mt. Dew
2. Hot Choclate
09 August 2008
Watching the opening ceremonies last night was moving. It always is, seeing all those athletes, getting pictures of each other, groups of nations just so excited to be together. Again, good healthy competition bringing out every one's best. For two weeks, we root for the underdog regardless of their nationality. We are excited when someone wins, beating all odds. For most of us, the Olympians are the 'best of the best.' And I love it all.
And then I watch the Chinese officials and leaders and just want to throw their books and flags and any other piece of paper they've touched the last 10 years out a very high window and throw them over my knee and paddle their bottoms!!!
My skin was crawling and I'm watching the Ceremonies and thinking about all the stories I've read these past few weeks and how these "games" came to be. They took everything good and honorable and natural human out of these games, trying to force their country to put on a facade of perfection, even with all their problems in Tibet, not to mention the neighborhoods they forced out of their homes in order to bulldoze to make room for their precious Stadium.
Yes, all the hype is just hype for me this year. I root for the athletes; I really want Michael Phelps to win those Gold Medals because that would just be so cool! There are so many great athletes.
It's just too bad that the rest of the nobility to the Games is all a cover-up for bigger problems no one is willing to look at, least of all China.
That's my soap box until October and I get to vent about the Presidential Candidates. :)
08 August 2008
J: Where is Dad?
Me: He's up ahead of us (he was on his motorcycle).
E: He's up by the gray car (not really, I couldn't see him, he was so far ahead).
Me: Yah, he's up there somewhere.
J: Oh! See the red and blue lights? Is that him?
Me: He better not be with the red and blue lights (chuckle to myself).
E: Yah, that's a police car. Dad's not a police man.
J: Oh...maybe next time.
Dear, you have no idea how hard I tried to NOT laugh :)
05 August 2008
03 August 2008
What is your relationship status?
Last book you read:
Need I say more?
(Sigh) But, I did make a peach cobbler in the DO yesterday!! I was so exceited to have it done and get it eatten (with vanilla ice cream, mind you) that I forgot to get a beautiful picture!! Oh, well. Until next time...
30 July 2008
So, I've decided I need to get myself organized. Yup. I need to make a schedule for every aspect of my life in order to get through the day. Let me rephrase: productively get through the day, i.e. balanced meals, laundry where it needs to be (folded, put away), messes cleaned, grimy bathroom/kitchen taken care of.
This shouldn't be difficult, considering I've been making lists and planners my whole life but since having children, the lists become harder and harder to stick to. Like the grocery list: great idea and big help, but not when you leave it at home or even in the car!!
Answer? Chore Chart :)
One for everyone. I'll let you know how it works...
Eliza said Lily needs one. Okay, sweetie.
29 July 2008
As for summer cooking? Summer is for dutch oven cooking! I haven't done it for years but sure enjoy my Dad's and brothers cooking, too! I'd really like to get back into it more. We even have one! Seasoned and ready! Oh, the shame! I just ask Daryl to grill something. Less clean-up.
Oh well, my Dad doesn't read this blog often enough to catch that part. But, just in case he DOES happen to read (i.e. my sister tips him off), I WILL cook something in it before Labor Day. That's a promise for myself.
Cool drinks and good eats.
Love summer cooking!
P.S. Props to my Sis for telling me about the AWESOME background!! :) xoxo
26 July 2008
Sorry it is turned not sure how to fix it.
I will try to get one of Jordan on here next time I have him and put one of Eliza on here as well maybe try to sneak one of Rachel on here as well...we shall see how this goes!
1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.
If you see this your tagged, you have to do it!! Have fun, and don't be shy!
24 July 2008
(I tried to get this posted on Tuesday, alas my schedule gets away from me!)
I guess I was the first to move away from home. Technically, Mack went on his mission first, but that doesn't really count. But, even though I moved out, I was living with another family as their Nanny...but I was on the other side of the country, in a small town in Nowhere New York, Walkabuck, NY. Big house, though. :) It was a tough but great experience and really strengthened my relationship with my family and also my testimony. I was so utterly alone and was forced to rely on the guidance of the Spirit and felt so blessed for do so! I learned so much and made great friends. It was a personal pioneer experience and set the stage (and foundation) for my life so far.
When I hit a low spot in my life due to poor choices, I was able to reflect on my past in New York, how it prepared me for my mission, and my mission and how it prepared me to lean on Christ, helping me through it all...Line upon line...
All so very personal, something I'll probably only share with my children when they need extra strength from the crazy world we now live in.
Anyway, some fun pictures from our Primary Pioneer Hike the last weekend in June
19 July 2008
We've been doing class work (reading, watching videos, learning about equipment) this week, but we were able to observe all day Friday. It was awesome, just having different responsibilities and being able to be surrounded by a team of very competent people, all working for one objective -- keep the patient safe. Plus, everyone was (doctors included) so nice and accommodating and involving. I'm pretty sure I made the right move (few!).
Hopefully I can get some laundry done and groceries bought today...
Best wishes for a great weekend!!
15 July 2008
Honestly, I've been trying for 6 years to get a "routine" but even if I did have one, would you really want to read about it? Besides, I'm still working on it. I'll let you know when I've mastered it.
13 July 2008
I will try this other shorter video too...
all that work and 3/4 of the blog doesnt show up....that sucks!
09 July 2008
...maybe if they were empty and it was done out of symbolism? Naw, that wouldn't make any statements. But tea...now that's an idea!
Thing is, people would probably jump in and try to lift the barrels out, not out of protecting the environment but because they'd want the oil for themselves!!
I really think the only way to bring the price of something down is to NOT BUY IT. But how do we do that and still get ourselves to work? I, personally, can take the train, and D now has his motorcycle, but if it rains or when it snows he'll have to take the car, so we're still dependant. Last month we spent almost $400.00 on gas. Crap! No wonder things are tight. I'm sure everyone feels that way!
So what do we do? Not a clue. :)
I'm betting the average family cannot afford gas AND cannot afford to buy a new hybrid car or equivalent. So, I'm just throwing out ideas and seeing what comes of it. We can't buy a new car, so we are just trying to use less gas. That's all we can do right now. How about you?
But I really would like to throw the barrels into Boston Harbor...
08 July 2008
So many things, how do I even start? I loved the video my sister put on her TTA for today. I agree, seeing the service men and women is truly heartwarming, knowing what they are doing for our country.
Being able to go to school and choose my career
Being able to vacation, at all, where ever I darn well feel like it
Being able to marry whomever I choose
Being able to own a gun (if I so choose) and protect my familyBeing able to vote for the leader I feel is most capable to lead
Paul Revier, George Washington, Thomas Jefferson and so many others who were influential in the building and protecting of our country's religious freedomBut how do I ever say "Thank you" to a bunch of people who are no longer alive?
I can show my gratitude by living how they would want me to live, in our country of freedom, by utilizing the tools of voting they gave me, by supporting our military, by teaching my children to respect the laws of the land and the flag of our country, by enjoying the beautiful land and all it has to offer, and by praying to the God who made it all possible.
And shedding a tear or two every time I sing the "Star Spangled Banner" or say the Pledge of Allegiance (my own personal touch).
04 July 2008
P.S. You can do one too! Just follow the directions at the bottom!
1. Rachel and the Lake, 2. cheeseburger with onion rings, 3. Pocatello High School, 4. yellow hill (a.k.a. find the bee), 5. christian bale, 6. Diet Mt Dew Machine Panel, 7. Sorrento, Italy, 8. we fell in chocolate over love, 9. mom n baby, 10. Family Hands, 11. Day 102 Florence Nightengale We salute you!, 12. 2115
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd's mosaic maker.
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One Word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name. (kid version: favorite animal?
03 July 2008
Seriously, it all started with getting paint for the kitchen, then..."Crap, the disposal isn't working. Wouldn't it be easier to just install a new one in a new sink...I found a great counter top that would look so great with the new wall color...it would be great to just take the old ones off, let me paint then put the new ones on...good thing we're getting a new sink to go in the new counter top cuz the old faucet has a corrosion hole on the underside and is spraying water all over...might as well make the pantry bigger...if we made the door to the new pantry come out at an angle, we could move the fridge over and add another cupboard...I found a new backdoor that matches the pantry door..."
That's about where we are right now. :) I hope to have most of it done by next week, at least so we can paint the main color while my family is down from Idaho for Eliza's B-day party. Keep your fingers crossed. :)
P.S. He got the current garbage disposal working again, but he had already started the demo, so no going back now!! :)
30 June 2008
Driving, Saturday afternoon, on southbound I15. Generally, we are staying with the traffic flow. There are, of course, the few crazies passing everyone but for the most part we are passing very few people and very few people are passing us. I'm enjoying the ride. Curious, I look over at the speedometer...65!! D is driving 65 mph and we are barely being passed!! Utahans are really getting desperate when they start slowing down to conserve gas. :)
So, I tried it on my way home from work tonight. Yes, I'll admit it, I put my cruse on 65 mph. I was still passed by the few crazies, but everyone else seemed content at that same speed or a tad bit faster, some even slower. I didn't even feel like a sitting duck, which I have in the past if I try to go that slow. Plus, it only added about 5-8 minutes to my commute.
Truthfully, I don't care what kind of engine you have:
NOTHING is fuel efficient at 80+ mph!!!
27 June 2008
Answer the following with only one word.
1. Where is your cell phone? .................... pocket
2. Your significant other?....................... lovely
3. Your hair?.................................... dirty
4. Your mother? ................................. friend
5. Your father?.................................. funny
6. Your favorite thing?.......................... chocolate
7. Your dream last night?........................ didn't
8. Your favorite drink........................... Dew
9. Your dream/goal?.............................. secure
10. The room you're in?.......................... office
11. Your children?..................................... playing
12. Your fear?................................... loosing
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years........... secure
14. Where were you last night?................... home
15. What you're not?............................. alone
16. Muffins...................................... chocolate
17. One of your wish list items?................. time
18. Where you grew up?........................... pocatello
19. What you read last........................ BofM
20. What are you wearing?........................ robe :)
21. Your TV?..................................... annoying
22. Your pets?................................... bird
23. Your computer? .............................. slow
24. Your life?................................... fast
25. Your mood?................................... tired
26. Missing someone?............................. sister
27. Your car?.................................... malibu
28. Something you're not wearing?................ shoes
29. Favorite Store?.............................. Penny's
30. Your summer?................................. Hot
31. Like someone?................................ Daryl
32. Your favorite color?......................... yellow
33. Last time you laughed........................ today
34. Last time you cried?......................... yesterday